I received a necklace in the mail a few days ago. After losing the twins I did alot of searching online for ways to honor them. I found this great website called La Belle Dame and ordered a fabulous necklace. There were so many different memorial jewellery options on the site, I was so impressed. [...]
I’ve been working on a garden for my little babies. So far there’s not too much, just a rose bush, rocks surrounding the garden and of course my babies. But before I decided to put the garden there it was an absolute disaster with foot high weeds and nasty clay and mud. One day at [...]
I had the most crazy bazaar disturbing dream last night, well, a nightmare really. I was up most of the night and after having this dream I was up for another good chunk of the night. It went a little something like this: (warning… graphic and may disturb you)
I can’t remember everything about the dream, [...]
Have you ever heard the saying, “It Takes a Village to Raise a Child”? Well, I think the same applies to a broken grieving woman. After my experience I was and still am so dissappointed in our small city and the health care here. I live in Lethbridge, AB, Canada and even though we have [...]
I found this wonderful article this morning. It goes over why grief is different for those of us experiencing a miscarriage and unless you’ve been there, it’s hard to understand. People don’t know what to say and in an effort to be comforting, they usually say something that makes it worse. For example, any statement [...]
So a couple of days ago I broke down and phoned medical imaging at the hospital. I needed to have those ultrasound pictures, if it was possible. It was possible and they told me to come get them the following day. The disk costed $10 but I would have paid $100 (or more), it’s absolutley [...]
Over the past 2 weeks I have noticed something. I’ve noticed that many mothers I know have experienced a miscarriage, and even found out about a stillbirth I wasn’t aware of. I’ve realized that there are people close to me who I don’t know at all. I was amazed when these mothers just started coming [...]
So I have decided to name the twins. After doing alot of soul searching and searching online I have decided this is the best thing for me. I am however, not sure how R will take it. There are so many things you can do when your baby has a name, like various memorials and [...]
I have had this whole weekend to myself. My two older children are visiting their grandparents, and the two younger children went with Dad to the mountains. Wow, this is rare that I get a moment, yet alone a whole weekend, to be alone. I know I should clean the house while I have the [...]
For my whole life I’ve been very involved with music. Whether it be playing the piano or listening to some rock and roll, I always attach to songs and let them take me away.
I particularily like this song by George Canyon, “my name”. It’s a song written for a friend of his who had experienced a miscarriage. [...]
