The day before I found out I was expecting I completed the DONA birth doula training. It was a great weekend and finding out I was pregnant was such a fantastic surprise. I decided to complete the doula training and get certified before baby arrived.
Well, no babies will arrive, and I’m still planning on DONA [...]
The family and I drove out to Castle Mountain the past weekend. Castle Mountain is where I was when I first realized something was wrong with my babies.
On the way to Castle there’s a little red schoolhouse. As I was driving I could see it from so far away. In the middle of nowhere, surrounded [...]
You know when you hear a song and can relate to it on so many levels? That’s how I feel with this song. I can relate to it through my miscarriage and also through my relationship and both combined. I’m not going to lie, things are kinda crap right now. Anyways, it’s a good [...]
There’s a recurring theme in my life… a fine line. There’s a fine line between love and hate, sane and insane, tolerant and intolerant, and pregnant and not pregnant. It seems that one second I’m on one side of the fine line, whether it be love, sane, tolerant and pregnant, and then the next second [...]
I just got off the phone with my cousin who has been trying to have a baby for years now. She and her husband are the most caring, fantastic people I know and if anyone should have a baby, it’s them. After years of trying they finally decided to try IVF (invitro fertilization). Today she [...]
Every day I’m finding more and more resources and memorial ideas for moms who have had a pregnancy and/or infant loss. Today I came to find Say it with Flowers. You can go a request that they write your baby’s name on a flower and then take a picture of it. I have seen many [...]
As I was scrolling blogs a while back I read, “After a loss, friends become strangers and strangers become friends”. While I have not had any friends become strangers following my loss, in the past I had become a stranger to a friend who experienced loss before me. I reached out to her and she retreated and isolated [...]
On my quest for answers I stumbled accross this site. Actually, I wasn’t even really searching for it, I accidentally found it. The Twin-to-Twin Transfusion Syndrome Foundation is a place for information, resources and support for those affected by TTTS. From their site:
’snip’ What is TTTS?
Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome (TTTS) is a disease of the [...]
We spent half of our holidays in a cottage that has been in the family for 50+ years. It’s very close to Winnipeg Lake and I have very fond memories from my childhood there. If you’ve been there than you know how big the lake is, if you have not been there I’ll tell you, [...]
I bought this book within days of losing my babies. During our holidays I managed to finish reading it and thought I would post a little reflection on it.
The title of the book is “Empty Arms” and it’s written by Pam Vredevelt. Pam herself suffered a miscarriage as she was about to enter her fifth [...]
