This whole loss/grief thing is quite the rollercoaster ride. For the past 3 months I have been going through denial, anger, depression and bargaining. If you can believe it, I have made bargains with God, with my brother who died 11 years ago, and also with R. I actually told R that I would let [...]
I read this poem online and thought I would share it here.
Yes, it was early.
I’d only known you for a few weeks;
But life – NO.
I didn’t feel kicking inside me for that other person.
I felt it leaping inside my own spirit!
Life – a new Life; God working wonders within me!
It was awesome.
We waited so long.
We [...]
Since my loss I have noticed the need of support for mamas and families experiencing miscarriage or stillbirth. While I was able to find a support group, they meet once a month which doesn’t make it the most available or personal support.
So… here’s my plan:
1. Volunteer Doula services for mamas going through a miscarriage or an impending [...]
I recently read a blog post that analyzed the statement, “Your birth is the most important event in shaping your life as a mother”. I read the post and honestly, had it been 4 months ago, I may have responded with, “woah! you’re crazy! Birth is EVERYTHING”. You know what I mean… the whole, “peace [...]
This is absolutely one of the most moving songs I have heard about baby loss, it is amazing. Although the song is specifically about a stillborn, I can still relate to the emotions expressed having experienced a miscarriage. Not my typical music preference, but I could listen to this all day. You can purchase the mp3 at [...]
I haven’t been able to find a whole lot of resources or information for mothers who lose twins to miscarriage or stillbirth. I think there are different aspects that need to be covered when addressing the grief of losing twins. I have found information on specifically twin loss in the sense that the mother has [...]
I spend alot of my time listening to music, it’s what I do. It feeds my soul. There’s a few songs I thought I’d share. The first one is “Capri” by Colbie Caillat. I used to listen to it all the time when I was expecting A, then I didn’t listen to it so much [...]
Okay, I’m ready to talk about my day. The day I had yesterday was raw and intense to say the least, it was not so great. I was working at a baby sale, I own a business that sells baby carriers, cloth diapers, all that stuff. All morning I was surrounded by pregnant mamas and [...]
Today was a really crappy day. I don’t even feel like typing about it as I have finally stopped crying and do not want to start again.
I was looking on my phone and saw some pictures I had taken while expecting. The first one is of our sweet daughter A, she’s wearing a shirt that [...]
Like my last post states, today was “Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day”. I wasn’t sure how I would react, for some reason I thought I would just sail through the day like any other day and then light a couple candles. Well, it certainly did not go like that. I was emotional ALL DAY, [...]
