Miscarriage Art

I’ve gone to a few art therapy sessions over the past few months.  This past time that I went I wasn’t really sure if I’d get anything out of it.  I thought I was handling things pretty well and was close to being “fine”.  However, it’s interesting  to see what tuns up when asked to [...]

Miscarriage UC style

There is something empowering about DIY. Even when the end result is a shitty situation, if it’s DIY, there’s still a sense of empowerment. There just is, I can’t explain why it is….
When I was in the ER and the doctor recommended a D&C I didn’t even have to think about it, hell [...]

Heaven’s Gain

When I knew I was going to “physically” lose my babies I had no idea what I was going to do with them.  I really didn’t.  Infact, I thought that I had already passed the babies and then it all became very obvious that I hadn’t.
With one baby in the toilet and another baby and the [...]

I Wish

This past week has been an extremely busy week.  I really had something going on every single night, it was insane!!  So on one of the nights I had a trade show, it’s was called the Showcase of Women in Business.  It was a nice show and gave me a chance to mingle and get [...]

Healing Hearts

Since my loss I have noticed the need of support for mamas and families experiencing miscarriage or stillbirth.  While I was able to find a support group, they meet once a month which doesn’t make it the most available or personal support.
So… here’s my plan:
1.  Volunteer Doula services for mamas going through a miscarriage or an impending [...]

Pregnancy Loss Doulas

I co-organized a conference that just passed last weekend.  It was a whirlwind of information, amazing speakers, great company and a rollercoaster of emotions.  The conference was all about Birthing, Breastfeeding and Bonding.  It’s my passion, but my loss has added a different perspective to all of those things.
During the conference this great woman came [...]

In The End

You know when you hear a song and can relate to it on so many levels?  That’s how I feel with this song. I can relate to it through my miscarriage and also through my relationship and both combined.  I’m not going to lie, things are kinda crap right now.  Anyways, it’s a good [...]

Deadbabyland

As I was scrolling blogs a while back I read, “After a loss, friends become strangers and strangers become friends”.  While I have not had any friends become strangers following my loss, in the past I had become a stranger to a friend who experienced loss before me.  I reached out to her and she retreated and isolated [...]

Stars in the Sand

We spent half of our holidays in a cottage that has been in the family for 50+ years.  It’s very close to Winnipeg Lake and I have very fond memories from my childhood there.  If you’ve been there than you know how big the lake is, if you have not been there I’ll tell you, [...]

Empty Arms

I bought this book within days of losing my babies.  During our holidays I managed to finish reading it and thought I would post a little reflection on it.
The title of the book is “Empty Arms” and it’s written by Pam Vredevelt.  Pam herself suffered a miscarriage as she was about to enter her fifth [...]