They’re Here

Anyone remember the great 80’s horror flick “Poltergeist”? Well, picture me saying “they’re here” just like that blonde girl in the movie. Creepy, I know… but I just want you to know that’s how I’m “saying” it. And alas, “They’re Here”.
She had her twins. They arrived safe and sound yesterday after 2 1/2 hours of [...]

Heaven’s Gain

When I knew I was going to “physically” lose my babies I had no idea what I was going to do with them.  I really didn’t.  Infact, I thought that I had already passed the babies and then it all became very obvious that I hadn’t.
With one baby in the toilet and another baby and the [...]

Oh so Thoughtful

R came home the other night after Christmas shopping for the kids.  He loves Christmas shopping.  I emptied the bags and see he bought little A a baby doll…. wait a minute!!  He bought her TWO baby dolls, TWINS!  I couldn’t believe it.  I asked him, “why on earth did you buy her twins?!”, and [...]

They’re Everywhere!!

You know when you buy your first car or maybe a shirt you love and then you see it everywhere?  I can spot out a 94′ Honda Civic a mile away.  Well, I’ve come to realize that this awareness also applies to babyloss.  I am seeing twins everywhere!!!
Everyday I drive my children to school and I pass [...]

But there were TWO!

I haven’t been able to find a whole lot of resources or information for mothers who lose twins to miscarriage or stillbirth. I think there are different aspects that need to be covered when addressing the grief of losing twins. I have found information on specifically twin loss in the sense that the mother has [...]

The Reality of it all

So a couple of days ago I broke down and phoned medical imaging at the hospital.  I needed to have those ultrasound pictures, if it was possible.  It was possible and they told me to come get them the following day.  The disk costed $10 but I would have paid $100 (or more), it’s absolutley [...]

The Story of my Twins

I found out I was pregnant on June 15th.  I had just completed the DONA birth doula training the day before and was absolutely certain that I wanted another baby.  I was so excited to see a plus sign, and just one day after I had made the decision that I could have another and [...]